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IndyShop [10 Nov 2013|08:37pm]

So, I do do things in my absence ;) This is what I've been spending almost every second of my free computer time on the last few months. I'm not charging any shopkeeps to upload so if you know any mom and pop clothing stores anywhere in the world that might want to upload for free, please let them know about it (there's a link for shopkeeps at the bottom). There's only a couple outfits now, but hopefully you like it and will find it useful in the future :)
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[27 Oct 2013|06:38pm]
I don't know just where I'm going
But I'm goin' to try for the kingdom if I can
'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man
When I put a spike into my vein
Then I tell you things aren't quite the same

When I'm rushing on my run
And I feel just like Jesus' son
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess that I just don't know

I have made big decision
I'm goin' to try to nullify my life
'Cause when the blood begins to flow
When it shoots up the dropper's neck
When I'm closing in on death

You can't help me not you guys
All you sweet girls with all your sweet talk
You can all go take a walk
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess I just don't know

I wish that I was born a thousand years ago
I wish that I'd sailed the darkened seas
On a great big clipper ship
Going from this land here to that
I put on a sailor's suit and cap

Away from the big city
Where a man cannot be free
Of all the evils in this town
And of himself and those around
Oh, and I guess I just don't know
Oh, and I guess I just don't know

Heroin, be the death of me
Heroin, it's my wife and it's my life
Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head
And then I'm better off than dead

When the smack begins to flow
Then I really don't care anymore
About all the Jim-Jims in this town
And everybody putting everybody else down
And all of the politicians makin' crazy sounds
All the dead bodies piled up in mounds, yeah

Wow, that heroin is in my blood
And the blood is in my head
Yeah, thank God that I'm good as dead
Ooohhh, thank your God that I'm not aware
And thank God that I just don't care
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess I just don't know


Lou Reed
You called it how you saw it.
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[20 Jun 2013|05:34pm]
Ok, what my last post was all about:
The day before yesterday I received a comment from Bronchitykat asking me to explain further my last post. I started to make a reply comment to that but it occurred to me that a making a proper public post in full would probably be helpful to everyone and I promised to make one. Uh, but I didn't do it yesterday as promised because I didn't have time to log in (read:got too drunk at the pub), sorry :( But now I do have time and here goes:

What's the deal with PRISM (why you should care and protect yourself):

Edward Snowden was an employee of the defence contractor Booz Allen Hamilton(and a former CIA technical assistant) when he sat down with Glenn Greenwald of The Guardian in Hong Kong to be interviewed. In that interview documents were supplied to Greenwald that proved, among other things, that large tech/internet brands such as Google, Facebook, Yahoo, Twitter, Skype, Microsoft and Apple (and others) have been named as participants in a clandestine NSA (American governments National Security Agency) electronic surveillance program called PRISM.

PRISM has been operating as a secret project since 2007. Since 2007 the personal data (text, videos, chats, pictures, etc. etc.) of Americans and persons living within America or electronically communicating with Americans has been collected and digitally stored without their authorization or consent by the NSA. Illegally so. Ameicans are guaranteed by the fourth amendment to their constitution:

'The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no Warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by Oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the persons or things to be seized.'

Americans have another guarantee by their constitution, that of free speech. The very fact that a whistle-blower had to flee to Hong Kong to speak to a journalist from a UK paper puts the constitutions (through government and failing that the peoples) ability to enforce those guarantees into serious question. To what extent each company named collaborated, or more likely acquiesced :(, is not known. What is know is that each company named has been proven to be a participant in this NSA program and by continuing to voluntarily supply them with information so are the people who use them. I'm not even American and the very thought of the American constitution being treated as nothing more than a relic to be ignored is offensive to me. I don't want to participate in PRISM.

Obviously if you live in America there is no way to completely opt out right now less never use a phone, computer, and some gaming consoles...or even talk to someone who does (and this goes for people outside of America to an extent too) Of course, and you know this if you've been listening to me babble on about Free software from time to time here over the years, how we communicate in the modern world is greatly dependent on technology. Many of us use a keyboard and/or keypad as frequently as we use our voice. The Privacy Commissioner of Cananda has stated that they will investigate whether or not we have a similar program. Scary. This issue is not limited to 'techy people' or "those poor Americans over there". Again, even if you're not American, if you use the services named you are affected; No question about it.

There are things you can do. Firstly, read up on PRISM yourself (this was a painfully inadequate overview). The EFF has published a tool called PRISM-break here that lists alternatives you can use instead to ensure your privacy and freedoms as best as possible (one of those alternatives is pump.io, what I was on about last post, and those on my friendslist just ask me for what username you want and you can use my pump if you don't want to use a public one). Donating to the EFF if you can and sharing the PRISM-break tool are good ideas too. If you're American please, please, PLEASE write the person who represents you (congressperson, governor, I'm not exactly sure..sorry :0). Even if you just scrawl in crayon 'PRISM is the suck' on a postcard it is so important that you do so because right now your tax dollars are funding the NSA; You are paying to have your rights voided and for your own surveillance :(
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[20 Sep 2012|02:26pm]
[ mood | FML ]

How to make can't sleep anymore but still postdrome coffee

*Do this only if you know coffee and chocolate are helpers, for some people they're triggers.

1) If you have a 6 cup coffee pot, only fill the pot to the 4 cups mark. Same for larger pots, just fill the pot with two less cups.

2)Pour the water in the machine and put the coffee grinds in the basket but don't turn it on yet.

3)Fill the now empty pot to the 2 cup line with cold milk and put a minimum of 4 heaping tablespoons Fry's cocoa (not Hershey's because it's not good quality and you won't get a lot of magnesium out of it) on top of it. You don't need to stir it now and can just leave the cocoa in a pile floating on top of the milk because the heat will make to cocoa absorb evenly.

4)Put the pot on the burner and turn on the machine to make coffee as you normally would.

5)When it's done, and before each cup you take, give the pot a little stir with a chopstick or something.

6)Enjoy while praying "please not again, please not again"

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[30 Apr 2012|11:56pm]
still checking and testing stuff

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[30 Apr 2012|11:35pm]
I'm just testing something
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[06 Mar 2012|10:46pm]


Can you hear her? Harmonized in that MGMT track is Britta Phillips,a.k.a the singing voice of Jem from Jem and the Holograms.
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[15 Feb 2012|08:17pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

You know what bothers me the most about the disrespect over Whitney Houston's passing this week? Beyond the selfish brats making jokes about letting Chris Brown hit them at the expense of abused spouses everywhere, all the crack jokes, Sony jacking the price of her recordings and cashing in,etc. etc. ?

What bothers me the most is that media outlets keep playing segments of the theme to the body guard over and over again. Yes, that was a defining song of her career, but was that her message? Is that all she represented? I think her life was more than just her career. From her struggle with achievement expectations (she was Dionne Warwick's cousin and Cissy Houston's daughter. Even with the best upbringing that's got to be intimidating), her struggle with substance abuse and her romantic struggles (including spousal abuse); Her strong spirit always found a way to manifest through her music (anyone remember the greatest love, is that still relevant today?). She knew that we are all one, all more, and all worthy of love even if we don't act like it. Why isn't that being remembered? Worse, why are people outright making fun of her struggles?!!

Worse of all though, why is the media ignoring her, her message, and her spirit by selecting the song that is remembered (just because of the overplay it got in '92 ) simply as grocery store music and not playing the song that I think describes her and the message she just left this world best?

If tomorrow is judgment day
And I'm standing on the front line
And the Lord asks me what I did with my life
I will say I spent it with you

If I wake up in World War III
I see destruction and poverty
And I feel like I want to go home
It's okay if you're coming with me

'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us
'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us

If I lose my fame and fortune
And I'm homeless on the street
And I'm sleeping in Grand Central Station
It's okay if you're sleeping with me

As the years they pass us by
We stay young through each other's eyes
And no matter how old we get
It's okay as long as I got you baby

'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us
'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us

If I should die this very day
Don't cry, 'cause on Earth we weren't meant to stay
And no matter what the people say
I'll be waiting for you after the judgment day

'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us
'Cause your love is my love
And my love is your love
It would take an eternity to break us
And the chains of Amistad couln't hold us
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[08 Feb 2012|06:35pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I brought a cat toy home for Miss McMahon today but it's the very first one I've bought her without catnip in it. She just looked at me as if to say "Yeah, and what's the difference between this and the rest of the crap on the floor?"

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[02 Feb 2012|10:41pm]
[ mood | blank ]

As far as I know (which certainly is not much when it comes to biology!), H5N1, a.k.a. the avian (bird) flu is verified with a polymerase chain reaction procedure which reads the DNA code of a virus. It stands to reason then that a genetically modified strain would stand out as, well,a modified/new version of H5N1? I'm wondering why the medical community is not checking to see if the strains of H5N1 found in recent bird flu deaths are genetically modified, or not reporting their findings if they are.

There is a modified version of H5N1 that was genetically engineered to be airborne and easily transmittable between mammals (not typical in nature) in international efforts by labs in the Netherlands, USA, and Japan. In short, they made H5N1 an even better potential killer as one would not need direct contact with birds to become ill and would be able to contract it much easier from an infected human. Late last year, there were two separate papers submitted describing independent studies in their entirety to the journals Science and Nature (one confirmed presented in September 2011). Submitting these papers for publication sparked an international debate on whether the research should have been conducted at all let alone published.

At this time, those issues are still in debate. Arguments for continued research and full disclosure in publications include (amongst others) the belief that a better understanding of H5N1 will lead to a better understanding of how to combat it and that information should be freely and openly exchanged (otherwise it would be scientific censorship). Normally I would agree that all scientific knowledge belongs to the world and should not be closed/hoarded, but in this case I'm inclined to agree with Thomas Inglesby:

"Even in the rare event of an accidental infection of a laboratorian, the societal consequences of an escaped pathogen would normally be minimal or nil because most pathogens have little capacity for spread. However, the escape of a mutant, highly contagious H5N1 strain with a high case-fatality rate into a population with little or no immunity could result in a catastrophe."

On January 20th 2012 a letter signed by 39 scientists was published in both Nature and Science stating the intent of the signatories to continue dialogue in an international forum and to halt any experimentation related to H5N1 for 60 days voluntarily.

What I'm concerned about is that none of the recent statements (I only bothered to look at January 2012) being issued in regards to international H5N1 deaths state whether or not the H5N1 strains found are known or new/genetically modified. I think they are most likely known and not genetically modified, but it would be reassuring to know that given all the recent controversy. Then again....shouldn't there be a whole lot more reported contact with birds and dead birds in these reports?

"...Vietnam has recorded its first human bird flu death in nearly two years, and although the victim worked at a duck farm the H5N1 virus has yet to be found in poultry there..." 2012-01-19"

"...head of Health Department at the Province of Jakarta, said that the patient was suspected of being infected by the virus as he was sick following the death of one of his pigeon a week before.... 2012-01-09"

"...The mainland authorities say a man has died of H5N1 bird flu in Guizhou province, and they have notified the Centre for Health Protection in Hong Kong. The centre said the patient was a 39-year-old man who developed symptoms on January 6 and was admitted to hospital the same day. The man did not report having been in contact with poultry before the onset of symptoms....2012-01-22"

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[14 Jan 2012|04:21pm]
Holy fuX0rs Bukkake! Super migraine head explosion!!!! literally.
I'm not looking at my monitor for extended periods of time (which is actually a samsung tv with wonky refresh) for a while more. I know I just put that up there, and will respond soon....just not now. Back to drooling in bed listening to old coast episodes and cleaning...about all I can do. Not riskin it..nooooo.
Fuck the sun and fuck solar rays!
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[07 Jan 2012|09:58pm]
This is cool....
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[29 Dec 2011|06:20pm]
I know, I'm awful for updating...
For now, pics from Florida....

Click here to see the set full size

Click here to see this set full size

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[11 Dec 2011|09:36am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I haven't been around for a while because I've been working like a dog. Tomorrow, is the big payoff! I'm going to Florida and am going to eat my weight in Steak and Shake!!!! :) I can only go for like four days, but I think that's enough time to recharge my solar batteries. Uh, then back to being dead broke. Worth it!

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[17 Nov 2011|11:04pm]
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[14 Nov 2011|02:08pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Everything about the weather turning cold sucks...except for this!!

Yaay! I get to wear my Doctor Who scarf again!! O.K. that's about as excited as I'm going to get about spending the next half a year of freezing my ass off. This was taken yesterday while Andrew and I were checking out a new storm pond they just built. It's actually pretty cool except for the spongy patch on one of the levees we found. Yeah, sinkhole anyone? Our Mayor's a massive dick and I wouldn't be surprised at all if he arranged for corners to be cut in some sort of crooked 'skim off the top' scheme. Meh, I just hope no one gets hurt.

Y'know what's extra super happy fun lucky cool about that picture? It's not hosted on photobucket or imgur or anywhere else that I have to agree to stupid terms of service. For example, imgur has a waiver in their Terms Of Service that says:

"By accepting these terms, you waive and hold harmless company from any claims resulting from any action taken by Imgur during or as a result of its investigations and/or from any actions taken as a consequence of investigations by either imgur or law enforcement authorities."

Ok, on first glance that looks good. Of course they're going to comply with law enforcement if someone uploads kiddie pr0n or something, right? Good for them, pedo's deserve to get everything that's coming to them!!! Yet, is that really all this is about? Let's take a closer look:

"By accepting these terms, you waive and hold harmless company from any claims resulting from any action taken by Imgur during or as a result of its investigations and/or from any actions taken as a consequence of investigations by either imgur or law enforcement authorities"

I used strikethough on the last part about law enforcement because that's essentially what that phrase "and/or" can toggle in the meaning. I'm left wondering "investigations" of what? What "actions"?  It does not specify at all. Disturbingly, they also do not specify imgur LLC. as "company", rather they don't specify a company at all. There is no preamble identifying imgur as "the company" or "company". You could be waiving your rights to any company. Any company who, say, might have bought  an investigation by imgur into what pictures may best represent the feeling behind their product to use in an ad? Worse, an investigation into which women would look best with bukkake edited onto their faces to use in porn ads?; Yeah, that seems alarmist and in all honesty unlikely. The agreement is also shit, but can you afford to defend your position in a court of law if one of your pictures is selected for something similar? That is, of course, after you've completed their Notification of Claims of Infringement process that specifies you must provide:

"A statement declaring under penalty of perjury that (a) the above information in your notice is accurate, and (b) that you are the owner of the copyright interest involved or that you are authorized to act on behalf of that owner. "

Yes, this is ridiculous, but it's not a question of whether or not this is enforceable, it's a question of whether or not you can afford to prove through the legal system that it's not. By agreeing to the waiver; You've accepted the responsibility for that. But hey, they let you keep the copyright for your works (which is great if you can afford to enforce them). I should note that imgur is actually one of the least creepy sites out there. Yeah, I've read way worse TOS'.

It's ok though, because I uploaded that image to a public instance of MediaGoblin!! :)This project is kickass!! Firstly, because they let you upload a picture and just go away. I've all but given up on photobucket with all the "click here!, click there, look IT"S AN AD!!! OMG OMG LOOK LOOK Yaay ADS!!tag me!! tag me bitch!!!connect to  facebook!, are you sure you're not on facebook?!!!!!, connect to facebook damn it! Oh, alright then, tweet! tweet!!!" ....GAH! nag, nag, fucking nag! You can tag stuff on mediaGoblin too, but I'm lazy and they only ask once.  That's not why I'm so exited though. It's not so much about how mediaGoblin is better, but why it exists in the fist place. It was created with the Franklin Street Statement in mind. The Franklin Street Statement is a document to help users like you and me that serves as a guide on how we can choose online services (like diaspora instead of facebook, etc. ...and now mediaGoblin instead of  whatever) that respect you as a user and your freedoms (for example your freedom to not, say, constructively  waive all your rights by agreeing to sketchy TOS' in order to upload). Also pretty awesome, is that they're not a company (they're a GNU project) and they haven't exclusive centralized servers controlling all of mediaGoblin that ever there was and that ever will be. Anyone, anywhere, can run an instance of mediaGoblin. So, say if you're in an artist's collective, in an ongoing collaboration, or just some random person  and want to share a collection with the public and you don't want to use a third party online photosharing site; You can set up your very own instance of mediaGoblin on your (or your hosts) server instead of having to build or pay someone to build you a media sharing site from the ground up. I don't have a server or hosting though, so I just clicked on the part where it says "Find sites already running mediaGoblin". It's pretty damn awesome :)

...oh, one more thing, video is rumoured to be coming soon :)

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[11 Nov 2011|10:46pm]
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[11 Nov 2011|05:12pm]
Bronchitikat is back!! I could not have logged on to a more pleasant surprise!! :)
I've missed you so **hugs**
I know I just kinda blurted that out but I don't know how much time I have and had to say that.
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[22 Oct 2011|04:50pm]
[ mood | awake ]

wow! It's been forever since I've made an open update, eh? I just haven't had the free time when I've been able to concentrate. I'm sitting on the floor at a bead show right now. In a big empty exhibit hall...watching beads. That's it, a bunch of beads. Actually, it's freaking awesome! I've got tunes playing on my phone, I haven't had to say a word to anyone in over two hours (Fuck yeah!) and I brought my netbook to work. Why? because I really don't care anymore if they fire me which, um, seems to be a lot harder than I thought. I'm working for GSS right now as I type this. I think they take "fired" literally here; As in you actually have to light something on fire to loose your job. Of course, it is non-guaranteed (awfull, like 10 available hours one week, 50 the next! )!hours at minimum wage, so yeah, I get why Janet (manager) really likes me. I never sleep while everyone else who works for the company does....and that's just because I'm all crazy paranoid ;) I love working nights though! Not to sound like a nutter, but I can sense when other people around me are conscious and it just gets to be too much sometimes, especially on the subway, etc. Unfortunately, but very fortunately in the grand scheme of things, I've also been working a lot of afternoon shifts lately. Remember the job I was going for but I didn't want to jinx it?, well I got it! Yaay! a living payrate! So, now I work for a not for profit :) I do like the idea of that :) I just finished training and I've only gotten a few shifts with them so far and I'm still hoping for a permanent site (why I'm still keeping my other jobs). In the mean time, I'm doing lots of fun stuff! I can't tell you what that is though :( Yup, fun stuff :) I'm especially excited about a shift I have coming up, but I can't say what I'll be doing. Tee hee, I guess I can say this much, it's plainclothes and I'm required to "blend" in with business people. Not the general public, I have to pass for an actual real grown up business woman. Well, that's going to take some effort!! ;) tee hee, I tried to put on some makeup and realised I don't know the first damn thing about makeup! How does it work? Lol, I've got a lot of stupid videos on youtube to get watching! My hair is still mostly here so that's passable I guess. Oh yeah, I have to see yet another specialist about that. Arrgh! The good news is that my bloodwork and other tests I did all came back fine. Everything keeps pointing to stress. To be perfectly honest, tonight has reminded me how I just don't feel good unless I'm alone. I need to be alone. At the very least get a couple more shifts like this one. It may actually just be stress. It's still coming out by the handful though and I have no idea why:( Here's why I'm not so worried anymore though, it's being replaced with white hair. It's really short and thin, but I'm hoping it will grow out alright. I can live with that, that's what happens when you get old after all ;) Oh yeah, and I'm only "reduced iron stores" now so I guess supplementing is working :) Yaay! because I hate liver!! I'll take a pic when I get home (no internet access here, I'm just typing this up on mousepad). Anyhow, as most of the shifts I've been working have been afternoon/evenings I haven't really had any time where I get enough time to relax to the point where I can gather my thoughts. So most of my time online has just been being a jerk on /r/linux while having conversations in real life. Well, actually, I'm not so sure I'm just being a jerk. For starters, I don't think I'm so much of a jerk at all online, I think it's just that jerks like to call other people jerks (well, more elaborate attacks than that, but that's pretty much what they're saying). Anyhow, there's a lot of disinformation about a number of things that are happening now i.e. this whole UEFI business is scary as f*ck and they've already manged to co-opt it as 'secure boot that you know and love' (I really should gather my thoughts on that and make a post, even if just for my own benefit. Speaking of coopting terms pissing me off, this whole UEFI business has made me rethink...well, that's definitely for a different post. Anyhow, that's why I'm not so sure my presence there is nothing more than a indulgence because I'm one of a very few (and it's so obvious!)that actually read sources rather than just regurgitate clever sounding crap. I dunno? HA HA either that or I'm having delusions of grandeur! :) Speaking of delusions, I don't know what made me think I could live off ovaltine cookies with peanut butter for three days straight without repercussions.... tee hee, I'll end my update on whats going on with me there. No wait, no I won't because you should know: if you put peanut butter on ovaltine cookies, they taste just like reeses peanut butter cereal :) I dunno why, but they do,

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[02 Oct 2011|02:53pm]
Reactivated my facebook account, logged in and sent everyone on my friends list an invite to Diaspora (pretty much facebook without all the creepiness). Now I deactivate it again. I expect I'll leave a "I don't freaking use facebook anymore for the 50 million th time!!!!" message in my profile. GAH! Apparently my half sister was in town a couple months ago and just assumed leaving a facebook message was adequate notice. Sigh. I wonder how long it will be before a past facebook user misses an important business contact/meeting/deal/whatever and sues facebook for pretending that deactivated accounts are still active and training it's users to believe that being online/alive means you're a facebook user.

Also, David Harvey on the failures of capitalism
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